Leaders, Beware of the Partial Word

God has been dealing with me about how so many of us have been deceived by words of incomplete prophecy. Many of us are hearing and receiving messages that trust are from God, but still seem to betray us. Just over the last few weeks, God has reminded me of prophecies and I’ve been told of prophecies shared, particularly with leaders, seemingly beneficial to the recipient. Yet, not many days after, a betrayal takes place. Yet, there is a common thread. The word appears to be from God. It bears witness. It seems relevant, anointed and accurate.

I asked God about this deception that seems to be taking place. There are many STRONG leaders who have doubted themselves because of recent events involving ANOINTED prophets and followers who are abandoning their positions. What is it God? The Father began to speak to me about the incomplete word, and I must share this with the leaders. It is a rebuke and an encouragement, revelation and instruction.

God explained very clearly that many of His people are falling victim to the partial word. We forget that prophecy is a gift, and that it can come from a vessel with a hidden agenda. Even when the word is from God, it can be partially withheld. Oftentimes, withholding evidence is a crime people commit but are never prosecuted for. Why? We assume that when we hear truth, the totality of the thing has been shared.

God quickly reminded me that we prophesy only in part. We have adopted this idea from the ‘church’ that when a prophetic word comes forth, it should not be judged. We have been taught that no one should add to it or take away from it. God’s word so clearly explains this is not the case.

1 Cor 13:9 For our knowledge is fragmentary (incomplete and imperfect), and our prophecy (our teaching) is fragmentary (incomplete and imperfect).

1 Cor 14:29 So let two or three prophets speak [those inspired to preach or teach], while the rest pay attention {and} weigh {and} discern what is said.
1 Cor 14:30 But if an inspired revelation comes to another who is sitting by, then let the first one be silent.
1 Cor 14:31 For in this way you can give testimony [prophesying and thus interpreting the divine will and purpose] one by one, so that all may be instructed and all may be stimulated {and} encouraged;
1 Cor 14:32 For the spirits of the prophets (the speakers in tongues) are under the speaker's control [and subject to being silenced as may be necessary],

Yes, we are practicing a “courtesy” that God never ordained. Once again, God has been dealing with me about “checks and balances.” The Father reminded me that He has authored a system in the Church that would prevent us from being deceived, but we have chosen another way. We have chosen to call walk in weakness, but call it courtesy. We have chosen to lay down authority and call it order. As a result, many have fallen pray to the incomplete word – a partial word yielding deception.

2 Kin 8:7 Elisha came to Damascus, and Ben-hadad king of Syria was sick; and he was told, The man of God has come here.
2 Kin 8:8 And the king said to Hazael, Take a present in your hand and go meet the man of God, and inquire of the Lord by him, saying, Shall I recover from this disease?
2 Kin 8:9 So Hazael went to meet Elisha and took a present with him of every good thing of Damascus, forty camel loads, and came and stood before him and said, Your son Ben-hadad king of Syria has sent me to you, asking, Shall I recover from this disease?
2 Kin 8:10 And Elisha said, Go, say to him, You shall certainly recover; but the Lord has shown me that he shall certainly die.
2 Kin 8:11 Elisha stared steadily at him until Hazael was embarrassed. And the man of God wept.
2 Kin 8:12 And Hazael said, Why do you weep, my lord? He answered, Because I know the evil that you will do to the Israelites. You will burn their strongholds, slay their young men with the sword, dash their infants in pieces, and rip up their pregnant women.
2 Kin 8:13 And Hazael said, What is your servant, only a dog, that he should do this monstrous thing? And Elisha answered, The Lord has shown me that you will be king over Syria.
2 Kin 8:14 Then [Hazael] departed from Elisha and came to his master, who said to him, What did Elisha say to you? And he answered, He told me you would surely recover.
2 Kin 8:15 But the next day Hazael took the bedspread and dipped it in water and spread it on [the Syrian king's] face, so that he died. And Hazael reigned in his stead.

When the Lord took me to this Scripture, I screamed, I cried, and then I became angry. I saw how easy it is to get an accurate word of prophecy, and only share a part, leading to deception. God began to show many how many leaders have been hurt because of this very thing. The Word of God is shared until it begins to reveal the heart of the one delivering the message. We think that because someone hears from God, they have our best interest at heart. This is not always the case.

Even as we see in the biblical account, the man shared the Word of God only to the point that it revealed his own motives. He rejoiced with his leader, knowing that his own plan was to kill him and take the power and authority he walked in. Too many of our leaders are walking into the same trap because they recognize the prophesy as true, but fail to allow that same prophesy to be judged by another prophet. Leaders, beware of prophets that speak but attempt to silence another prophet from doing the same!

In the same manner, God also revealed to me another problem that is affecting his leaders. It also concerns the prophetic word. On Monday night, God spoke very clearly to me and explained that many who call themselves prophets have learned to quote the Father. They may even know the type of thing God may say, but that does not mean they are speaking what GOD IS SAYING!

What do I mean? I know and understand that my husband is a fan of NC State basketball. Because of that knowledge and past conversation with him, when his NC State team beats my UNC Tarheels in basketball, it may be accurate for me to say something like, “I could just hear Chris now, laughing and cheering for his Wolfpack team.” My statement is accurate based on EDUCATED ASSUMPTION. Even still, I can make such a statement without ever hearing or seeing what is really going on. Oftentimes, when the prophetic begins to move, those in the midst begin to prophesy just as Saul did. It “sounds” accurate and even anointed, but the word is based on assumption. “It may sound like something I’d say,” says God, “but that doesn’t mean I’m speaking it.” We must realize that the Word of God is ALIVE.

May I bring your attention to a biblical example and well-known account of what who prophesied a word that “sounded like God,” though GOD NEVER SPOKE IT…

1 Kin 13:6 And the king said to the man of God, Entreat now the favor of the Lord your God and pray for me, that my hand may be restored to me. And the man of God entreated the Lord, and the king's hand was restored and became as it was before.
1 Kin 13:7 And the king said to the man of God, Come home with me and refresh yourself, and I will give you a reward.
1 Kin 13:8 And the man of God said to the king, If you give me half your house, I will not go in with you, and I will not eat bread or drink water in this place.
1 Kin 13:9 For I was commanded by the word of the Lord, You shall eat no bread or drink water or return by the way you came.
1 Kin 13:10 So he went another way and did not return by the way that he came to Bethel.
1 Kin 13:11 Now there dwelt an old prophet in Bethel; and his sons came and told him all that the man of God had done that day in Bethel; the words which he had spoken to the king they told also to their father.
1 Kin 13:12 Their father asked them, Which way did he go? For his sons had seen which way the man of God who came from Judah had gone.
1 Kin 13:13 He said to his sons, Saddle the donkey for me. So they saddled the donkey and he rode on it
1 Kin 13:14 And went after the man of God. And he found him sitting under an oak, and he said to him, Are you the man of God who came from Judah? And he said, I am.
1 Kin 13:15 Then he said to him, Come home with me and eat bread.
1 Kin 13:16 He said, I may not return with you or go in with you, neither will I eat bread or drink water with you in this place.
1 Kin 13:17 For I was told by the word of the Lord, You shall not eat bread or drink water there or return by the way that you came.
1 Kin 13:18 He answered, I am a prophet also, as you are. And an angel spoke to me by the word of the Lord, saying, Bring him back with you to your house, that he may eat bread and drink water. But he lied to him.
1 Kin 13:19 So the man from Judah went back with him and ate and drank water in his house.
1 Kin 13:20 And as they sat at the table, the word of the Lord came to the prophet who brought him back.
1 Kin 13:21 And he cried to the man of God who came from Judah, Thus says the Lord: Because you have disobeyed the word of the Lord and have not kept the command which the Lord your God commanded you,
1 Kin 13:22 But have come back and have eaten bread and drunk water in the place of which the Lord said to you, Eat no bread and drink no water--your corpse shall not come to the tomb of your fathers.
1 Kin 13:23 And after the prophet of the house had eaten bread and drunk, he saddled the donkey for the man he had brought back.
1 Kin 13:24 And when he had gone, a lion met him by the road and slew him, and his corpse was cast in the way, and the donkey stood by it; the lion also stood by the corpse.
1 Kin 13:25 And behold, men passed by and saw the corpse thrown in the road, and the lion standing by the corpse, and they came and told it in the city where the old prophet dwelt.
1 Kin 13:26 When the prophet who brought him back from the way heard of it, he said, It is the man of God who was disobedient to the word of the Lord; therefore the Lord has given him to the lion, which has torn him and slain him, according to the word of the Lord which He spoke to him.
1 Kin 13:27 And he said to his sons, Saddle the donkey for me. And they saddled it.
1 Kin 13:28 And he went and found the corpse thrown in the road, and the donkey and the lion stood by the body; the lion had not eaten the corpse or torn the donkey.
1 Kin 13:29 The prophet took up the corpse of the man of God and laid it upon the donkey and brought it back, and the old prophet came into the city to mourn and to bury him.
1 Kin 13:30 And he laid the body in his own grave, and they mourned over him, saying, Alas, my brother!
1 Kin 13:31 After he had buried him, he said to his sons, When I am dead, bury me in the grave in which the man of God is buried; lay my bones beside his bones.

Hmmm… Leaders, how many have caused you to fall, then mourned your loss? How many times have you felt honored because someone prophesied to you, saw you fall, but stood beside you in the failure? Our prayer is this season must be that God opens our spiritual eyes and allows us heightened discernment.

Leaders, this word of encouragement is for you. Think on these things. Return to the authority you have been given. Do not allow the enemy to convince you that judgement is not of the Father. Remember, the Spirit searches all things. Selah.

In HIS Favor,
Prophetess Joy Allen

Discipleship Ministry

We who claim to be disciples of Christ and joint heirs with Jesus - why have we forsaken the complete scope of ministry? God has given me an assignment, and I must share this with all those who will travel in ministry THIS YEAR.

This is the Word of instruction, because God has not been pleased, as He said before, with "incomplete ministry." We are going from pulpit to pulpit, but neglecting much of the assignment. Hear the instruction of the LORD. As I read this Scripture, He spoke so clearly. I must take heed to this assignment, and know it applies to many others as well. If it convicts you, please adhere...

Mat 10:6 But go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.
God has sent us to minister to the lost sheep of Israel. In other words, there are some in the family of God who are still lost. Evangelism must be restored, but the prophetic must begin to flow freely again as well. We must realize there are many in the Church who are lost. They must be addressed. No more pumping up. No more pep rallied. Deal with the sin! Deal with the disobedience. Put the egos down. We must start calling sin sin. Stop stroking those who are out of order just because they carry a title or have an auxiliary in the church. God said we are offending Him in our effort not to offend others.

Mat 10:7 And as ye go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand.
Where is the simple Gospel? We must return to teaching that we must seek first the Kingdom of God. Then, all other things will be added. How many prosperity conferences must we have? How many more prayer meetings for healing or fish fries and fund-raisers? Where is the worship. No more creating empty services just to raise a dollar or say "we had church." Preach the Word God commands. Add nothing to it and take nothing away.

Mat 10:8 Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.
Return to that which God has given us power to do. We must operate in faith. God's house needs physical cleaning. There are some demons that have come in, and we've allowed them to stay. We have accepted sickness, disease, demonic oppression. Then, when we do render or seek healing, there is a charge. These things should not be so. No more charging or paying for a word. Who will serve Me without pay or reputation? God is restoring power to the Body of Christ. He told me, "If my people will only operate in faith, I will do what I said. The power has been provided. My signs and wonders will follow those who believe." God has commanded me to begin laying hands on the sick again. He's commanded me to engage in spiritual warfare like never before on behalf of my brothers and sisters. Not only that, but when the signs and wonders return, there will be no books...no huge conferences. There shall be no profit as a result. THIS DAY, God has reminded us of the power that lies within, to those with a pure motive.

Mat 10:9 Provide neither gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purses,
Mat 10:10 Nor scrip for your journey, neither two coats, neither shoes, nor yet staves: for the workman is worthy of his meat.
When God says "GO", we must go in this season. It's time to walk in a new level of faith. Money shall no longer be a hindrance. God says He is removing the obstacles for those who have a heart to serve, but have surrendered to circumstances. I hear God saying, FAVOR. I have been praying, even about my job. My schedule has hindered me from doing things I believe God assigned me to do. God said that even that season is passing. He is providing divine favor in situations such as this, but it still requires faith. I still need to have the faith to request that vacation time. Some of us still need to have the faith to reserve that plane flight. God WILL PROVIDE for His own work.

Along those same lines, God said we must learn to receive. He causes MEN to give into our bosom, but we must be willing to receive. God said many of us are lacking because we refused the help He sent. The word says the workman is WORTHY OF HIS MEAT. Look for people to bless you - even your enemies. God even showed me that when their motives are wrong, we are still not to refuse unless He expressly commands us to do so. "How else can the wealth of the wicked by laid up for the righteous?" I'm guilty. I have refused many gifts because I felt they were insults. I felt they were given in spite rather than love, so I refused. No more.

Mat 10:11 And into whatsoever city or town ye shall enter, inquire who in it is worthy; and there abide till ye go thence.
City-wide influence. God dealt with me about something. He said, "Joy, I don't send a prophet to impact one house and leave. My prophets impact cities, states and nations." Too many of us are traveling to minister to one church and one group of people. God said, when we get to a city, we are to ask questions. We need to know who else dwells there. I see God making provision for His people to minister in multiple places within one trip. I am praying for even more clarification and instruction in this regard.


TRUE DISCIPLESHIP MINISTRY. Will you heed the call in this season?

I Have Not Rendered You Powerless

POWER = Ability, Capability, Strength, Authority

God spoke to me about the lack of authority and power in ministry, and I was sorely rebuked by what I was told and shown. Now, I must share this with the Body of Christ. The Lord spoke clearly: “I have not rendered you powerless!” Then, He began to show me more.

God is not pleased with the way many of us have “done ministry.” Yet, He has called many into a season of rest, and is now bringing us into a new season and giving us an opportunity for a new beginning. In the season, our Father is requiring that we fulfill a realm of ministry that has been forgotten. God said that He desires to see His faith work in us. He showed me that many have the wrong concept of ministry. Therefore, we are not operating in the full authority He has given us. Many prayers have gone forth asking God to do things He has given us power to handle in this earth. Many are failing for reasons God has already combated. Essentially, there is a lack of faith in the Body of Christ, and our Father is mainly concerned with those in leadership, those who say they were called to true ministry.

The Father took me back to some very familiar Scriptures. First, He reminded me that none can walk in the spiritual gifts without the presence of the Holy Spirit. When my Holy Spirit resides in you, does not power accompany His presence?

Acts 1:8 But you shall receive power (ability, efficiency, and might) when the Holy Spirit has come upon you, and you shall be My witnesses in Jerusalem and all Judea and Samaria and to the ends (the very bounds) of the earth.

Yes, God is restoring the holy boldness that many of us have lost. It has been lost because so many in the Body of Christ have neglected the Holy Spirit. Many, even those who walk in ministry, have failed to yield to the Spirit of God. They have abandoned relationship with God and attempted to depend only on their “good works.” God says these do not operate in power. He said those who have been endowed with His power have two things: boldness and the will to go. Yes, God is saying this is the season to speak what thus says the Lord. It is not the season to walk in false humility. It is not the season to allow the unholy thing to live in the Body of Christ. “I have appointed you as judges,” says God. “Judgment must begin in My house.” This is also not the season for Apostles, Prophets, Evangelists, Pastors and Teachers to sit inactive. There should be a yearning in the spirit of those who are called to GO. There is a work to be done. Too many that should be silent and repentant are proclaiming a false gospel while those who have truly been called of God remain silent. God is saying, “Rise, go and boldly proclaim.”

Jesus gave this very commandment, also known by many as the Great Commission:

Mark 16:15 And He said to them, Go into all the world and preach {and} publish openly the good news (the Gospel) to every creature [of the whole human race].
Mark 16:16 He who believes [who adheres to and trusts in and relies on the Gospel and Him Whom it sets forth] and is baptized will be saved [from the penalty of eternal death]; but he who does not believe [who does not adhere to and trust in and rely on the Gospel and Him Whom it sets forth] will be condemned.
Mark 16:17 And these attesting signs will accompany those who believe: in My name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new languages;
Mark 16:18 They will pick up serpents; and [even] if they drink anything deadly, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick, and they will get well.

Yes, many of us are familiar and adherent to the first two verses. So many are glad to preach from church to church. We love to fill our calendars with appointments and activities. We will even preach salvation, though watered down, to those we meet during church services and conferences. Yet God is asking, “Where is your power? I have not rendered you powerless!” My Father began to show me how we are not completing our ministry assignments. The Word of God tells us those who believe and go should have signs following. There should be miracles accompanying the Word of God. Where are they? Yes, we have speaking in tongues handled, but what about the casting out of demons? What about the ability to thwart sickness and disease? Where are those who are being healed, delivered and set free?

God is issuing a strong rebuke. Many are preaching the word with no power. Therefore, God says the ministry is not pleasing to Him. The work has not been complete. “How can my leaders lack so much faith?,” God is asking. “I have called you to a greater work than what my Son did on the earth.” Yes, God said we are preaching a false hope, an incomplete word and a lie. We have become “hype men and women” for the Father, but do not operate in the power He has given. God is saying we need to examine our faith. If we can’t walk into the promises of God, why are we preaching them to others? From our hearts, many of us are preaching a lie. We are preaching a Gospel that we don’t believe ourselves. We are making promises to other people on God’s behalf, but don’t even believe He’ll keep those promises with us. The worst part is this - we then accept accolades, even money, for an incomplete work. My God, I repent!

The Father took me back to instances where I preached that He was a healer. I saw people and even laid hands on those who were sick. Yet, I limited God’s ability to work through me due to my lack of faith. My service to Him was incomplete. Often, I said “God, they must not have had the faith.” God instructed me to read the Word of God. Power that God has given us should not depend on the faith of others. Did not Jesus rebuke the Apostles for the same thing?

The instruction from the Father in this hour and season is to operate in the power and authority He has already given us, WITH SIGNS AND WONDERS FOLLOWING. If they are not operating in our ministries, we must seek the Father and find out why. Some of us need to sit down until we begin to see God working in us. God even showed me that power is withheld from many because we are preaching our own name rather than the name of Jesus Christ. These signs follow only those who glorify God! Hmmm....

Prophecy has been polluted because the standard has been compromised. How many of us have heard a prophet speak a word that never came to pass or a word that was completely against the word of God, but was never rebuked or corrected? How many of us have sat under a Pastor that prayed for the same people every Sunday for years, but saw no manifestation? It MUST be corrected IN THIS SEASON. Let God be true, and every man a liar! We must come up in the spirit realm. We must then walk in ministry as Paul did:

1 Cor 2:4 And my language and my message were not set forth in persuasive (enticing and plausible) words of wisdom, but they were in demonstration of the [Holy] Spirit and power [a proof by the Spirit and power of God, operating on me and stirring in the minds of my hearers the most holy emotions and thus persuading them],
1 Cor 2:5 So that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men (human philosophy), but in the power of God.

Paul did not try to excite the people with his motivating speech, clichés or cute jokes. Instead, he ministered with power. He ensured that people saw God moving rather than himself. The Word of God says that men are drawn to Jesus when they see our good works. Signs and miracles are not for us, but for those needing to be drawn.

“I have not rendered you powerless,” says God. Complete the work in this season!

Spiritual Lesbianism - An Epidemic in the Church

I have struggled with this message since Monday when I first began hearing God speak it. It is a sticky, difficult topic, but I must be obedient and share as I have been instructed. During corporate prayer, I distinctly heard God say, “The spirit of lesbianism is rampant in the church.” We discussed it briefly following prayer, but God has continued to speak on the subject, and I must share what He has given me, though this is a hard word – even for me to swallow.

All that God said particularly caught my attention, because He said “lesbianism” rather than homosexuality. I had to get further clarification on why He used this term. I took the message as a general one for the Body of Christ, but God said this message is a direct one for those in my sphere of influence – those with whom I interact on a daily basis. In that case, mostly women...

One of the first indications of lesbianism is the denial of natural affection. “I don’t need a man. A woman can do anything a man can do. I can take care of myself.” There is a polluted level of independence that moves beyond the natural tendency, causing a woman in the natural to dismiss what God has designed – the union between a man and a woman. Essentially, women in the church are doing the same thing as women in the world – denying the dependence God has ordained.

Gen 3:16 Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee.

Yes, God has shown me and rehearsed the conversations in my ears. “I don’t need a Pastor or a covering. I operate in all the gifts. I can do ministry all by myself.” Many are moving outside of God’s natural order – outside of what God has designed for the Church. Even in the realm of partnered ministry, many women in particular are dismissing the mandate on their husband’s lives. Pulpits are becoming divided. How many churches have we seen pastored by a man or a couple when suddenly the wife has a television show titled “Her Name” Ministries? Why the division and the need to be separate from the unity God has put in place? Ladies, why have we adopted the lie that we must walk alone in order to prove our strength? Why do we feel that we can only trust one another with what God has given us? Why are we threatened to submit to the men God has placed over us, whether they be in ministry or our own homes?

Eph 5:21 Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.
Eph 5:22 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.
Eph 5:23 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body.
Eph 5:24 Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.

I understand there are times when God will call a woman out for spiritual or ministerial service. There are situations when a man in a relationship may not be at the same level spiritually as the woman or vise versa. NO EXCUSE. In fact, this used to be my excuse for many of the things I did to “overstep” my husband’s position as head of the household. God’s response – “YOU married him. By doing so, YOU submitted to the authority.” Yes, the same holds true in the church. When we feel our leaders are out of line or that they have “missed God”, we take it upon ourselves to overstep their authority or step out into our own ministries, without their covering and without accountability. We then justify it by saying they are not in God’s will. The word of God remains the same. This is the season to LEAVE or CLEAVE. Stop bashing, insulting and criticizing those to whom you can’t submit. God is saying the same thing. “YOU decided to make covenant with that body of believers. In doing so, YOU agreed to submit to the authority.”

We spend too much time justifying disobedience by exploiting what we consider to be the sins and shortcomings of our leaders in the spiritual and the natural. Oftentimes, men are the target of this ridicule. Either way, it is out of order. Instead, we should be asking God to reveal our own character. If, in fact, they are so wrong and flawed, what made us CHOOSE to enter the covenant? Even more, where is the POWER we should have to bring change to that situation? Are we so special and holy – are our ministries so sanctified that God will excuse us from His plan, allowing just a select few to defy authority and step into the spotlight, leaving behind the ones we agreed to follow?

Women of God, let’s be careful not to leave God’s plan and order – naturally or spiritually – as they are both against the nature and will of our Father. The spirit of lesbianism is being manifested and is running rampant in the church. Do not be a carrier, but work to restore order in your homes and the Body of Christ.

Spiritual lesbianism is a serious ordeal, and it is rampant – not only in the organization of the church, but on the internet. The internet is flowing with “lack of order” because accountability cannot be mandated. The internet can be hidden. One’s true identity, motives and emotions can be covered up. This is a season of exposure. Some of us need to return to what God has ordained. Natural order has been abandoned. Many are more accountable to an email inbox than to spouses and pastors. We feel that reading a message board is ministry. We allow Yahoo! Chat rooms to take the place of prayer. Hmmm… Fellowship is good, but there must be balance. We must use this tool to glorify our Father, not to defy Him or His order. Submission must return to the Body of Christ, and it must be done in God’s order. Women of God, YES, we must submit to our husbands. YES, we must submit to the Church as God has ordained it. NO, we cannot do this alone. NO, we are not called out alone. What good is your elevation if you have brought no one along? Selah!

1Ti 5:8 But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel.

Heb 10:25 Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.

Eph 4:11 And he gave some, apostles; and some, prophets; and some, evangelists; and some, pastors and teachers;
Eph 4:12 For the perfecting of the saints, for the work of the ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ:
Eph 4:13 Till we all come in the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ:

1Co 12:27 Now ye are the body of Christ, and members in particular.
1Co 12:28 And God hath set some in the church, first apostles, secondarily prophets, thirdly teachers, after that miracles, then gifts of healings, helps, governments, diversities of tongues.

Yes, You Have the Power, but Resist the Temptation

I am in prayer for the Body of Christ, particularly the leaders in this season. There is a shift of urgency in my Spirit. Literally, I can feel a changing of the guards. The Lord has shown me that this season must be one of preparation and rest. Even my Pastors have spoken about the "shift" they are feeling. A period of testing is coming forth - one of tribulation and pestilence as we have not seen before. We are about to enter a time when many will learn what it's REALLY like to have to depend on faith in our Father.

God has been showing me the trials of His leaders. This is a season of CHALLENGE for many. In the Body of Christ, there has been an atmosphere of criticism. Unfortunately, the challenge is not coming from the world, but from others in the Church. We are in a time where people have become too weak to engage in warfare with the enemy, so they choose to "show boat" their gifts by fighting against the brethren. Ahhh! God is saying, EXPOSURE. Motives are being evaluated. Integrity is being challenged. God is preparing His people for true battle.

This is a word for those who are being challenged. God said this is training ground. It's so easy for us to want to prove ourselves, and even God. Of course, we want others to believe the Father works through us and moves through us. Yet, in this season, we must be so careful to move only when God says to move. Sensitivity to the Holy Spirit and the voice of our Father is so important. We must be careful not to allow our own motives to interfere with God's divine plan.

Mat 27:35 And having crucified him, they divided his garments, casting a lot, that it might be fulfilled that was spoken by the prophet, `They divided my garments to themselves, and over my vesture they cast a lot;'
Mat 27:36 and sitting down, they were watching him there,
Mat 27:37 and they put up over his head, his accusation written, `This is Jesus, the king of the Jews.'
Mat 27:38 Then crucified with him are two robbers, one on the right hand, and one on the left,
Mat 27:39 and those passing by were speaking evil of him, wagging their heads,
Mat 27:40 and saying, `Thou that art throwing down the sanctuary, and in three days building it , save thyself; if Son thou art of God, come down from the cross.'
Mat 27:41 And in like manner also the chief priests mocking, with the scribes and elders, said,
Mat 27:42 `Others he saved; himself he is not able to save! If he be King of Israel, let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe him;
Mat 27:43 he hath trusted on God, let Him now deliver him, if He wish him, because he said--Son of God I am;'
Mat 27:44 with the same also the robbers, who were crucified with him, were reproaching him.

The Word of God shows us that Jesus, the very Son of God, was challenged by His accusers as well. Many who had once walked with Him now stood to judge and to talent. The pressured Christ to "prove Himself" to them. He was well capable of doing so. He had the power and the authority. However, to prove Himself would have canceled out the very will of God.

Persecution is coming upon God's people, and it will increase all the more. Yet, we must be careful not to become obsessed with proving ourselves to others. The authority of anointed leaders is being challenged like never before. It has begun in the Church and will increase from the world. Prophets are being challenged to prophecy. Healers are being challenged to heal. Teachers are being commanded to teach. God is saying that His gifts were not designed under the command of man. His power is not subject to the authority of the flesh.

Saints of God, as you are being challenged, resist the temptation to operate in the Spirit realm simply because flesh has challenged you! Divination is spreading quickly, and exposure is coming. You do have the power, but resist the temptation. Do not yield your spirit to the flesh! Rather, seek God for His will and await His instruction. Though it is sometimes difficult to remember, we are not ordained to entertain men, but to do the work of the Lord. Never has God been a circus leader or a magician. To GOD be the glory!

Just Because I Love HIM...

This is not a deep, prophetic message. I don't even have a Scripture to share, but I must release this burden on my heart. I am so hurt for the Father I serve and the people who follow Him. Over the last few days, God has allowed me to feel His heart and see His children as He sees them. It grieved me. I am now in a place where I just want to please God, not because of what it will yield me, but simply because I LOVE HIM.

All over this country, I hear people preaching the Word of God with ultimatums. You need to serve God in order to get this blessing. You must serve God in order to avoid that curse. I want to be past seeking God for what I can get or even for what I will avoid by doing so. I want to please Him because I love Him that much! I want God to be pleased with me, because it hurts me to feel that I've disappointed Him.

The Church has become so numb to the heart of God. The Lord had me to meditate on the love for my natural children. I don't expect anything from them, but I love them. I go to work to feed and cloth them, not to make me look good, but because I just WANT to bless them. I spend time with them just because I enjoy their company. I rejoice when they rejoice. My heart hurts when they cry. In 20 years, they may become millionaires and bless me with houses or cars, or they may put me in a rest home or "pull the plug" when my health fails. Regardless of what the future holds, I just love them. Each day, I long for them to know how much. No matter what they do or don't do, I will always love and cherish them. If anyone hurts them, they will feel my wrath. The love is unconditional. Oh, when will our love for God return to this state?
How can we rejoice when God is grieved? How can we look with disdain upon our brothers and sisters when God is pleased with them or chooses to use them? What is the real motive?

My Pastor has been speaking about integrity, responsibility and accountability. It seems the Church has lost them all. Yet, I hear God saying, "If you truly loved me, these things would come automatically." God showed me that the first thing is COVENANT. My God! Covenant will make you walk with integrity, responsibility and accountability! Covenant will keep your mind off rewards and losses.

In our world, "covenant" has gone out the window. Marriages no longer mean anything. People are not even committed to their jobs and careers like they use to be. In my parents' generation, there was a sense of loyalty, even to a company. People would work for one place organization 20 to 30 years. Now, the company will lay you off to save money, and the employees will leave after 6 months if another business offers more. People change spouses like some of us change socks. Black and red wedding gowns are more popular than white ones. Children divorce their parents. My God - people aren't even loyal to nature. I don't care if you're an atheist - men cannot be with men and women cannot be with women. The puzzle pieces just don't fit!!! Homosexuality is not only against God, but it's against the natural make up of the human race. Men, where is your covenant to manhood. Put some bass in your voice and get a backbone. Get a job. Take care of your responsibility. Women, stop trying to be butch by day and a diva by night! Be a woman. Take care of your children. Clean something every now and then. Stop making everything an argument. Who cares about who is right? What does GOD feel?

Oh, my heart is grieved. I am offended for my God. I am ready to move to the next level. I'm not concerned with a name. I told God, I don't care who calls me a prophet from this day forward. It's not even about me. If they do it in a way to offend God, then I'll have something to say. Other than that, don't respect me because of who Joy is. If that's your reason, save it! Instead, respect me because it will please your Father. I just keep hearing God say to His people, GET PAST YOURSELF.

I challenge us in this season to just stay in God's face. Return to your first love. I remember when I first started dating my husband. I didn't care about his car or how much money he made. I only wanted to spend time with him. We'd stay on the phone 4 or 5 hours, and not even say anything. Why do we feel that God doesn't long for the same, if not more attention? Father, I don't care if you pay my light bill or not. I just want to spend time in your presence. I don't care if I get the new husband or wife or not. I just want to feel your near. Lord, even if you destroy this earth tomorrow, I'll be satisfied if I can spend my last moments with You!
When someone asks, "Joy, why do you do this? What keeps you going?," I want my honest response to be nothing more than, "Just because I love HIM."

Selah.

Unto Whom Have I Brought Dishonor?

Ps 69:6 Let not those who wait {and} hope {and} look for You, O Lord of hosts, be put to shame through me; let not those who seek {and} inquire for {and} require You [as their vital necessity] be brought to confusion {and} dishonor through me, O God of Israel.

I don't want to go to church. The people are mean. They will never accept me. Christians are all alike. They talk the talk, but never walk the walk. They have faith for everyone else, but they are pitiful themselves. They are ignorant and unsuccessful. They place their hope in lies.

I belong to a church, but my church family has hurt me. I don't believe that "children of God can be so cruel." I trust in God, but "church folks" have never helped me. They judge, but are too high and mighty to judge themselves.

I've heard it from the saint and the sinner alike. As I began to pray about the state of the Church, the Body of Christ, I had to ask God - please don't let me contribute to the dishonor of those who truly love You.

I began to realize that these feelings and opinions must come from somewhere, yet no one wants to take responsibility. "God, what have I done to dishonor those who follow you? What mistakes have I made that gave your people a bad name?" The Word tells us that men should see our GOOD WORKS, and then be drawn unto the Father. How many have seen my SINFUL WORKS and been turned away? We must ask God to show us ourselves. So many of us have forgotten that Christians should be known by their LOVE. Yes, love brings correction, but correction does not destroy the spirit of another. Who are we really fighting? When we engage in spiritual battle, who is really coming out with the scars? Selah.

Ministry is NOT a SOLO Project

Prov 11:14 Where no wise guidance is, the people fall, but in the multitude of counselors there is safety.


Ministry is NOT a solo project. Too many are trying to make names for themselves. Too many are trying to be right. So many are trying to "make it" and don't want to owe anyone else any credit. God is upset about the abundance of those trying to do the work of the ministry alone.

Did not His word say that He sets the solitary in families? Did not Jesus ordain the Five-Fold/Ascension gifts for the edification of the Body? Does the word not call for unity? Are we not all parts of the same Body, fitly joined together? GET OVER YOURSELF!

God is angry, because His people are trying to accomplish His work without following His gameplan. What man knows better than our God?

God is calling for His people to GET IN ORDER. The lack of accountability IS NOT OF GOD. Where is the submission? Many have walked away from God's plan and order, trying to create a new realm of ministry - it's not of GOD. Yes, you do need others. No, you cannot do this by yourself. The walk doesn't have to be lonely. You must be poured into. There is always someone gifted to assist you.

SPIRITUAL SUICIDE. This is what we commit when we decide to WALK ALONE. God has been speaking loudly about this. Disobedience with a goal to please God is still disobedience. What is the real motive?

God showed me so many who have been feeling alone, as if everyone is against them. God said He will begin to send godly counsel in this season. DO NOT TURN THEM AWAY AS YOU HAVE IN THE PAST. Not everyone is against you. Use discernment, but know that God is sending counsel, even to the Apostles in this season. Receive them, says God.

Stop Worrying About the Year - Just Walk in Your Season

Like many of you, I have read literally 30+ prophecies concerning 2007, and I've probably heard even more. My Father and I had a long talk about this, and I asked God, what is it that I need to know about for 2007? I'd felt "left out," because though God has been showing me things, I haven't had any huge revelation for 2007.

God spoke and said He has been speaking all year. "I am not ruled by your sense of time. Too many are seeking a word and a vision for the year. I am not concerned with years, but with seasons. Too many are looking for a change on January 1, but have not yet completed the assignments required to move into a new season."

My Father quickly reminded me that His ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. He showed me that the church is operating in spirit of divination for fortune-telling. Too many are concerned with giving a word for 2007, while people are dying in THIS season. A season, God reminded me, is not dependent on dates but on progression, growth and completion of purpose.

I know this is blunt, but I must be obedient in sharing this. We must stop trying to conjur up a word for the year. What is God saying TODAY? God said, "Where were the seekers all year long?" How dare anyone give a word for the coming year when they have failed to communicate God's messages for the last 12 months! There is so much more I can add, but for now, this is all I feel led to share. Selah.

To Those Who Are Annoyed and Worn Out...

Acts 16:14 One of those who listened to us was a woman named Lydia, from the city of Thyatira, a dealer in fabrics dyed in purple. She was [already] a worshiper of God, and the Lord opened her heart to pay attention to what was said by Paul.
Acts 16:15 And when she was baptized along with her household, she earnestly entreated us, saying, If in your opinion I am one really convinced [that Jesus is the Messiah and the Author of salvation] {and} that I will be faithful to the Lord, come to my house and stay. And she induced us [to do it].
Acts 16:16 As we were on our way to the place of prayer, we were met by a slave girl who was possessed by a spirit of divination [claiming to foretell future events and to discover hidden knowledge], and she brought her owners much gain by her fortunetelling.
Acts 16:17 She kept following Paul and [the rest of] us, shouting loudly, These men are the servants of the Most High God! They announce to you the way of salvation!
Acts 16:18 And she did this for many days. Then Paul, being sorely annoyed {and} worn out, turned and said to the spirit within her, I charge you in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her! And it came out that very moment.


I had to ask God this morning, Lord what is going on that is allowing so many of the leaders to be frustrated by those that follow them. Of course, the world has its distractions, but what is the problem in the Body of Christ.

I am hearing so many say they feel they are walking alone and that those who walk with them or who are submitted to them seem to be MIA. While I am not a pastor, I must admit that I am feeling many of the same feelings. "What is it, Lord?"

My Father led me to this scripture and opened my eyes to something. This is a word of encouragement for those in leadership. Paul was approached by a woman of God, a true worshipper, who invited him to REST. She called forth Paul's faith in believing that she was a true woman of God rather than dictating to him who she was. In other words, instead of proclaiming to Paul what her ministry assignment was, she asked him to allow God to show him her true heart. She didn't boast of herself, but allowed God to reveal her intentions and purpose to the leader under which she was to submit. When God confirmed, Paul was able to REST.

The scripture then says that the new follower was with the leader ON THE WAY TO PRAYER. As they were seeking the Father in unity, a slave approached them. The fact that the girl was a slave is significant because it shows that she BELONGED TO SOMEONE ELSE. Oftentimes in ministry, we say with our mouths that we are submitted to a leader, but we are really slaves to someone else - another person, another church, our own agenda, etc.

The Word goes on to explain how this slave was possessed with a spirit of divination, which proved profitable to her owners. In ministry, we often see that those who are out of place are the very ones who thought they were more valued elsewhere. They are often the ones who have been placed in the spotlight, but never realized they were only being used. They are often the ones who feel mistreated when they are asked to remain obscure and are not able to be seen.

Though the slave never became FREE from her owners, she followed Paul and had the APPEARANCE of a faithful follower. She went everywhere he went. She shouted their praises in public and event pronounced that they knew the way of salvation. Yet, she annoyed and tired the Apostle Paul! To those who were in the streets - the onlookers and the public audience - she probably appeared to be an excited follower and a faithful steward. Yet, Paul recognized a spirit and cast it out from her.

God said that if the leaders are tired, there are still some slaves carrying spirits that must be cast out. These spirits are being revealed to the leaders, though others may not even recognize. Some of those who carry the most admiration on their lips for one leader are still slaves to another. Yet, a threshingfloor experience must take place. God is warning, though, that the leaders should be prepared. Those who were benefiting from the spirit of divination and control will be upset when it is called out.

Notice one other thing - the one that called the leader to be tired was the loud one - the one always singing the praises. The one causing rest was the one who was in obscurity. Silence is not always an indication of laziness, and loud personal praises are not always an indication of work or loyalty.

I am searching my heart on today and truly laying out before God, and He is even showing me some things about me. My desire is to be like Lydia - to be a servant that allows my leaders to rest, knowing that GOD has spoken highly of me, and that they have heard. God has given me a ministry and plenty of direction to go along with it, but it's very easy to lose focus of the fact that what He has given me is only a part of what He has given the leaders to which I am submitted.

I want to encourage the leaders and the followers who have ministries as well. It is possible to achieve balance and God's perfect will. We must understand that God's assignments are oftentimes dimentional. Submission is key. Is your leader tired? If so, where is your level of accountability? Has God spoken to your leader about your ministry, or are you singing your own praises and plans to those who have rule over you?

I believe in many facets of ministry, but I also believe in accountability. I am crazy enough to believe that when a person is submitted to the right leaders, and in their rightful places, God will reveal to those leaders some glimpse of the individual's assignment, that they may all work the vision in unity. In that case, no one should feel alone - not the leader nor the follower. Fatique may come, but it should not be due to those on the battlefield together. These things ought not be so!

Blow the Trumpet this Holiday Season!

Ezek 33:1 AND THE word of the Lord came to me, saying,
Ezek 33:2 Son of man, speak to your people [the Israelite captives in Babylon] and say to them, When I bring the sword upon a land and the people of the land take a man from among them and make him their watchman,
Ezek 33:3 If when he sees the sword coming upon the land, he blows the trumpet and warns the people,
Ezek 33:4 Then whoever hears the sound of the trumpet and does not take warning, and the sword comes and takes him away, his blood shall be upon his own head.
Ezek 33:5 He heard the sound of the trumpet and did not take warning; his blood shall be upon himself. But he who takes warning shall save his life.
Ezek 33:6 But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet and the people are not warned, and the sword comes and takes any one of them, he is taken away in and for his perversity and iniquity, but his blood will I require at the watchman's hand.


Many of us have been made watchmen over our homes and families. In other words, there are many who are the sole voice, or one of very few, in their extended families. During this holiday season, I encourage each of you to sound the trumpet as you attend holiday gatherings, dinners and other family functions.

Oftentimes, our most difficult and stubborn audience is the very family with which we dwell. It is not an easy thing to correct the elders we have loved for years or the parents who have raised us. Yet, God has spoken many times over that this is a season of elevation, but only for the elect – only for the remnant that are walking in true holiness. There comes a time when we must put away emotional ties and exercise godly love, which includes spiritual correction and guidance.

As we visit extended family and friends this season, let’s think about how many of them are truly on a path to hell. All of us have a responsibility to share with them the truth. Let’s remember that God sends us on assignments. If you are seeing people in the next two weeks that you haven’t seen in a while, could it be that God is sending you as a messenger? Could it be that your assignment is to simply share the truth with those you love? Could it be that you are called to blow the trumpet in your own family? Be encouraged and obedient in this season!


Ezek 33:32 Behold, you are to them as a very lovely [love] song of one who has a pleasant voice and can play well on an instrument, for they hear your words but do not do them.
Ezek 33:33 When this comes to pass--for behold, it will come!--then shall they know, understand, and realize that a prophet has been among them.

How Must Christ Is In Your Christmas?

This time of year, it's inevitable to read the newspapers without hearing the ongoing debate about Christmas. Is it wrong, is it right? Should we say "Happy Holidays" or "Merry Christmas"? To gift or not to gift? It's a never-ending saga, even in the house of God.

Without getting into tons of history and research, only to come to an endless debate, I want to share one thought with everyone during this holiday season...

So then, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you may do, do all for the honor and glory of God (1 Corinthians 10:31).

Saints, during this time, we must remember Christ. We must consider the heart of God. So many of us struggle and argue with traditions and their origins. We want to please our children, but are conflicted about which parts of Christmas should be kept, and which should be dismissed. Truthfully, it's really not that difficult to figure it out - DOES IT EXALT CHRIST? DOES IT DRAW MEN TO THE FATHER?

Even more, what did God tell YOU to do? Have you asked the Father what pleases HIM? Hmmmm...

Now, I leave you with one other thought. Consider this scenario...

A man and woman are celebrating their 20th anniversary. They have enjoyed a wonderful relationship, held together by the grace of God. At the anniversary dinner, the man leans over the table and looks into his wife's eyes. He tells her how he has enjoyed the wonderful time they've spent together, and presents her with a gift. To her surprise, it's a 4-karat diamond ring! Excited and anxious, the woman removes the ring from the box, and notices some engraving on the inside. When she reads the inscription, she realizes the ring actually belonged to her husband's ex-wife. He purchased this very gift as an engagement ring for his first wife rather than the one he was celebrating.

Now, his wife is disappointed, and somewhat upset. Confused about her reaction, the husband asks her why she is so upset. Pulling herself together, she explains... "I feel like I am receiving left overs. Though I know you love me and that you want me to feel appreciated with this lovely, expensive ring, the fact still remains that when you purchased it, your heart was set on someone else. The original purpose for this gift was to express your love to another woman, not me. I'd rather you give me a new penny, from your heart, than a recycled gift that happens to fit the occasion."

Isn't it funny how we do the same thing to God around this time of year? Many times, we get so caught up in tradition, and we SAY it's being done for God's glory. When we KNOW a particular act or practice came from idolatry and acts that did not please God, yet we try to justify them at this time of year by making it seem like a Christian agenda. We are simply trying to please God with an idol's offering - trying to give Him a used engagement ring. This year, let's give Him something new and genuine from our hearts. Seek His face and give Him praise. Before we celebrate, let's ask God what REALLY pleases Him. Whatever He says to do, let's do it. Whatever He says to leave out, let's just leave it out!

Then, and only then, will God get this glory in this season. Saints, we cannot continue to allow the world to dictate how we celebrate, when we shop, what we tell our children, and how we decorate our homes. So many believers, THIS YEAR, have even allowed the world's thinking to convince them that Sunday service should be cancelled on Christmas morning! We are the salt of the earth. WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DIFFERENT!

God bless you!

Negotiating Your Own Demise

In this season of shopping and holidays, I hear God saying that His people must be careful not to become so involved with the “season” that we sacrifice and risk our very integrity. God kept telling me to warn the people – “Do not negotiate your own demise.” I prayed and meditated on the word, and the Lord took me to the account in Genesis, chapter 34.

The story is about Dinah, the daughter of Leah and Jacob. In the story, Shechem (a Hivite and prince) sees Dinah, kidnaps her and rapes her. He then held her captive and seems to fall in love with her. Hamor decides to seek out Jacob and have a talk with him. He tells Jacob his son is in love with Dinah and begs that he give her in marriage. While this talk is going on, Jacob’s sons hear what has happened to their sister, and naturally they are very angry. They begin to seek revenge on her behalf. Shechem basically tells David that he will give anything in order to marry Dinah, but there is a problem in the plan, because God’s people were instructed not to intermarry with those He had not chosen. Deceitfully, Dinah’s brothers bring up this point and tell Shechem that in order for the two people to dwell amongst one another, all males must be circumcised.

Hamor and Shechem proceeded to instruct all the people of the land to follow this decision, an all men were circumcised. On the third day, while everyone was sore, Simeon and Levi took their swords and killed all the men in the land. They also took back Dinah, their sister. The other brothers then came into the city to kill anyone left behind and seize the belongings of the people.

We see in the passage an example of a person who wants something so much, that he goes against his own beliefs and decides to do ANYTHING for that he desires. Never are the results considered. Shechem makes an emotional decision and begs the graces of the party with power for two reasons: he has a lustful desire, and he needs to cover the wrong he’s done.

Especially in this season, many of us are affected by the same driving forces. We claim to celebrate the birth of our Savior, though we are well aware that many of us have allowed commercialism, tradition and paganism to drive and define the season, even in our own homes. Atop of that, we often try so hard to appease our desires and the desires of others, that we beg the very world that established those practices for the desires we need to fulfill.

What do I mean? Little Johnny, though he has Christian parents who “celebrate Christ’s birth” at Christmas time, still tell him stories of Santa Claus. In order to cover their lies, they feel compelled to buy Johnny lots of gifts to place under the tree. However, Little Johnny’s parents are already behind on the bills. So, they go to the world, known as a national bank, and beg for a line of credit they really don’t need. Yet, they will do anything, even sign a contract for a 12.9% interest rate. In the end, what glory was brought to the Father? What lesson has Johnny really learned? What gift did Christ receive.

In this season, people of God, don’t contribute to nor negotiate your own demise. In whatever manner you choose to celebrate, and in whatever you chose to do, simply be honest with yourself and with God. Then be obedient to His instruction concerning the matter. Think about it…

Would You Die for that Word?

1 John 4:1 Beloved, do not put faith in every spirit, but prove (test) the spirits to discover whether they proceed from God; for many false prophets have gone forth into the world.

God is speaking this morning about false prophecies going forth and those who are receiving them. Many people are receiving words that seem contradictory in this season. It seems as if one prophetic word pronounces death, then another comes and pronounces life.

In our Bible study, we have been studying the deception of Eve. It’s ironic that Apostle Tonita also shared a post about talking to the serpent. This is so dangerous because deception comes when a small portion of the truth is changed. We must be very careful and aware of receiving what seems to be the same word, but with a twist. That small twist can cause a mountain of confusion and error.

Jer 23:30 Therefore behold, I am against the [false] prophets, says the Lord, [I am even now descending upon them with punishment, these prophets] who steal My words from one another [imitating the phrases of the true prophets].

I have dealt with many similar situations, and find myself going to God to ask, which Word did you really send? 99% of the time, when a personal prophecy is brought forth, God has already dealt with me about the situation. If He hasn’t, the word will still bear witness in my spirit. So, when neither of these take place, I immediately pray about the word that has been spoken.

Unfortunately, so many are still preaching false messages, and people are receiving them in error. This morning, God said to ask the people – both those prophesying and those receiving the word, “Would you die for that word?” In other words, if your life depended on it (though it does – we simply don’t realize it), would you still stand behind that word? The truth is that there is always some uncertainty with deception. Deception comes about when a little truth is mixed with lustful desire. What have we received due to lustful desire rather than God’s word?

It is very important for us to be careful of what we receive in our spirits. The very elect are being deceived. The Word of God speaks of this very thing, and it is true. DISCERNMENT is needed. This is a dangerous season for walking in deception. Before speaking and before receiving that which is spoken into your spirit, make sure the Father bears witness. Make sure you are willing to die for that word!

No Longer Will I Vindicate My Anointing

I’ve heard and read so much about the trials of leaders in this season, and I’d like to add some personal commentary. Leaders are under attack! When I say “leaders”, I’m referring to Apostles, Prophets, Pastors, Teachers, Evangelists and anyone else operating in a leadership, ministry role. For weeks, I have heard from so many who are being “challenged” by the very ones that should be walking with them. My own Pastor has dealt with the situation, and I’ve found myself challenged as well. So, I’ve been in prayer. Not only about the situation as a whole, but about my personal experience in the matter.

Now, I have to be very honest and transparent in this post. If I can be real, let me just say this is not a word of prophecy, necessarily, but more or less a venting session and testimony wrapped into one! J

For quite some time, I’ve fought the opinions and comments of others about what I was or was not capable of in God. Unfortunately, I allowed it to stop me. I found myself walking as a fireball in God when the “doubters” weren’t around, yet shutting up and becoming exactly what they said I was in their presence – weak, insecure and spineless. Yet, something snapped in me this weekend, and I found myself just wanting to be used more and more of God, not caring about what is said or perceived by others, but feeling completely comfortable in the assignment God has given me.

My Father and I had some conversations this past week, and I feel brand new. He’s showing me how to be confident in Him, yet humble at same time. Godly confidence does not have to be compromised in order for meekness to remain. Hallelujah! During the weekend, God showed me that some tests would come. My very integrity, my calling and my assignment have been questioned, but I am finally convinced in my mind that though I may make mistakes, I am fully persuaded of who I am in God. I am 100% sure that my Father speaks to me and directs me in ministry. I know how I can please Him, and I understand what He speaks to me by way of instruction. No longer do I feel like I have something to prove. No longer do I feel intimidated. No longer am I discouraged by lying tongues that claim they’ve heard from God. Yes, I am fully persuaded, and know that my Daddy has my back.

Just like Paul, so many of us are being pushed in a corner, feeling that we always have to “prove” where God has called us to be. Paul felt threatened by the people’s knowledge of his past. Some of us feel threatened by our demeanor, our emotions, or lifestyles, or anything else that opposition can use to make it seem that we’re in error. Too many people are attacking personalities and saying the person is not of God. May I just say that God doesn’t need every Pastor’s personality to be the same or every Evangelist’s personality to be the same? Can we stop attacking personal attributes, making it sound as if God has spoken against the diversity He gave us? I’m not even talking about sin here. I have literally heard people say that a person is too nice to be a Pastor, too stubborn to be a Prophet, too talkative to be an Evangelist, etc. It’s not biblical. God chooses whom He will use. Sometimes personality adjustments are made, but God doesn’t call whom He doesn’t equip. If God called YOU to be a Pastor, then be a Pastor as only YOU can!

The Lord spoke something that I must share – He said that now is the season to cleave or leave! Yes, if anyone is not able to serve the leadership they have been called to serve under or walk with, it is important to leave. Leaving is better than being found in disobedience. Even if we cannot trust the God in those we walk with and work beside in ministry, there is a problem. The enemy is lying back laughing as we slaughter and discourage one another. We’re fighting the wrong battle. If you don’t feel you’re on a winning team, don’t cause the team to be defeated by sowing seeds of discord and division. Just leave and join one you believe in – it’s just that simple!

Now, back to Paul…

1 Cor 9:1 AM I not an apostle (a special messenger)? Am I not free (unrestrained and exempt from any obligation)? Have I not seen Jesus our Lord? Are you [yourselves] not [the product and proof of] my workmanship in the Lord?
1 Cor 9:2 Even if I am not considered an apostle (a special messenger) by others, at least I am one to you; for you are the seal (the certificate, the living evidence) of my apostleship in the Lord [confirming and authenticating it].
1 Cor 9:3 This is my [real ground of] defense (my vindication of myself) to those who would put me on trial {and} cross-examine me.

Gal 6:17 From now on let no person trouble me [by making it necessary for me to vindicate my apostolic authority and the divine truth of my Gospel], for I bear on my body the [brand] marks of the Lord Jesus [the wounds, scars, and other outward evidence of persecutions--these testify to His ownership of me]!

Paul became confident, after some time, in His ministry assignment and directly confronted those who doubted his calling and ministry. Not only that, but he provided the “proof” of what God called him to do. I am always amazed at how the very ones you feed are the ones who turn on you. The people’s lives and conversions alone were proof of the apostolic authority Paul had, yet he had to remind them of this. Finally, Paul said he would no longer be challenged or forced to vindicate who he is in God. His very testimony did that for him. Even in another passage, Paul admitted to his errors, but stressed that his current focus is on target. He said:

Phil 3:12 Not that I have now attained [this ideal], or have already been made perfect, but I press on to lay hold of (grasp) {and} make my own, that for which Christ Jesus (the Messiah) has laid hold of me {and} made me His own.
Phil 3:13 I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured {and} made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,
Phil 3:14 I press on toward the goal to win the [supreme and heavenly] prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward.

No, he had not done everything right, but he had a goal to accomplish – a calling to fulfill. He pressed, as God called him, to complete the assignment on his life.

Last week, I learned that one of my mistakes is that I hide my testimony. I don’t allow people to see the deposit that God has made in me. I keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself. Don’t get me wrong. The focus is not on getting the approval of man. However, they need to know that I am a prophet of God, that His word will not be missed. It has nothing to do with Joy, but because of the assignment that’s on my life, people need to know that I am sent, especially those who walk with me.

My Pastor has expressed some pains over the last few months, and I want to publicly say that I understand. I understand, because I’m going through the EXACT SAME THING, though it may be on a slightly different level. Not only do I understand, but God has shown me many ways in which I’ve contributed (in my Pastors’ case). One of those ways is by not walking in the boldness He has called me to. My Pastors, in their support of what God has said, seem ignorant when I don’t walk as I have been called. My disobedience causes their integrity to be challenged. Hmmm…

I know I'm not the only one being challenged. Nor am I the only one causing a leader to be challenged. If you can relate, be encouraged. We’ve all heard about false humility. It is still lurking. I’m excited to be breaking free!

God Is Calling for the SCOUTS

Last night during prayer, the Father spoke a Word of encouragement to me for His people, particularly those who have been frustrated as watchmen in the Body of Christ. God said He is calling forth the scouts, as He did in the day of Moses.

He said there are many who are becoming frustrated by sitting on the wall, and He is calling some to become mobile. The Church, as a Body, is going to experience a new level of momentum in the Spirit. God said that all He has promised will come to pass, but He is calling forth the scouts to move first into the new season, that they will be prepared to lead and direct those to follow.

God spoke so clearly and said those who are called out must be encouraged. Sometimes, the scout feels lonely, because everyone cannot follow into the new land. Some have been challenged by the Church – the ministries and the gifts, as our Apostle pointed out during prayer, are literally being challenged and doubted by some. God said this is not the time to be phased by those who doubt. He is going to move in such a way that His people will be reassured. God said He is going to show Himself strong to those individuals who have begun to doubt themselves. He is opening up the heavens to those who are being attacked – not to prove to others, but to prove to the very ones who are being challenged that indeed, they do hear from the Almighty God.

Scouts, suit up! Prepare yourselves. Dwell in the secret place of the Father, and do not be afraid to move. Do not be afraid to step into new territory. Hear and obey the voice of God. In due season, you will be instructed to declare what you have observed, but for now, prepare for a season of spiritual awakening as you’ve never experienced before. Be prepared to preview what God is preparing for the Church.

It is very easy for scouts to get discouraged. Scouts are called to sneak into the enemy’s camp. They are called to enter new places and seasons before the crowd. They are trained as mobile watchmen. SCOUTS, this is the season to gird up in boldness. Launch out and tell the people what you see!

Num 13:1 AND THE Lord said to Moses,
Num 13:2 Send men to explore {and} scout out [for yourselves] the land of Canaan, which I give to the Israelites. From each tribe of their fathers you shall send a man, every one a leader {or} head among them.
Num 13:3 So Moses by the command of the Lord sent scouts from the Wilderness of Paran, all of them men who were heads of the Israelites.

Num 13:27 They told Moses, We came to the land to which you sent us; surely it flows with milk and honey. This is its fruit.
Num 13:28 But the people who dwell there are strong, and the cities are fortified {and} very large; moreover, there we saw the sons of Anak [of great stature and courage].
Num 13:29 Amalek dwells in the land of the South (the Negeb); the Hittite, the Jebusite, and the Amorite dwell in the hill country; and the Canaanite dwells by the sea and along by the side of the Jordan [River].
Num 13:30 Caleb quieted the people before Moses, and said, Let us go up at once and possess it; we are well able to conquer it.

Num 14:7 And they said to all the company of Israelites, The land through which we passed as scouts is an exceedingly good land.
Num 14:8 If the Lord delights in us, then He will bring us into this land and give it to us, a land flowing with milk and honey.
Num 14:9 Only do not rebel against the Lord, neither fear the people of the land, for they are bread for us. Their defense {and} the shadow [of protection] is removed from over them, but the Lord is with us. Fear them not.

God Is Going to Open the Heavens

Luke 3:21 Now when all the people were baptized, and when Jesus also had been baptized, and [while He was still] praying, the [visible] heaven was opened
Luke 3:22 And the Holy Spirit descended upon Him in bodily form like a dove, and a voice came from heaven, {saying,} You are My Son, My Beloved! In You I am well pleased {and} find delight!
Luke 4:1 THEN JESUS, full of {and} controlled by the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led in [by] the [Holy] Spirit.


The Father is speaking to the Church. He is saying that death is coming to the land. The death is one of the flesh and worldly, human thinking. Many are straddling the fence between the Spirit and the flesh – a decision must be made. The Father desires to open heaven for His people. The waters have been troubled, and the Lord is waiting to literally touch His children. In this season, those who are obedient and those who seek Him will experience a quick elevation in the Spirit. This is a clarion call to those with a true desire to KNOW GOD personally.

There have been times, though few, when I entered prayer and was literally separated from the flesh. The Lord showed me things and spoke so clearly. Time was lost, and even those who were in the room with me knew that God’s presence was there. NO FLESH was able to operate. Truly, a peace that surpasses all understanding took over. When one is in God’s presence, and completely yielded to him, even physical changes can be seen. My appearance was changed, and my speech was transformed. I desire more of those times of intimacy with the Father, and He has promised even greater to those to SEEK HIM. The word of the Lord is that the waters are troubled. Some need only to enter in. Seek the Father like never before. Forget about ministry as we know it. Forget about bills. Forget about all the problems and concerns. Forget about the appointments and worldly obligations. Forget about your health, and just seek God. Set aside time NOW to completely sacrifice and engulf yourself in intimacy with our God. Seek first the Kingdom – the others things will be added.

I see the Father opening the heavens. I see His saints in prayer, looking up and seeing glimpses of Him. I hear His voice speaking loud and clear. I see people literally being transformed by the weight of the Holy Spirit. He has shown me the visions, and I know it shall come to pass – to those who have desire.

My instruction today was to share this message. Our job in this season is to soak in Him. The Church is in a world of trouble, but it can only be changed as God’s people are changed. Individual parts must be healed before the entire Body can function correctly.

Be encouraged, and bask in His presence!

Where is MY worship? Where is MY praise?

Where is My praise? Where is the worship and honor due to Me? My people have lost focus. Ministry has been abandoned for vain glory and personal exaltation. How dare My people esteem themselves to be equal with the Lord, Your God!

Lam 2:6 And He has violently broken down His temple like a booth {or} hedge of a garden; He has destroyed the place of His appointed assembly. The Lord has caused the solemn appointed feasts and Sabbaths to be forgotten in Zion and has spurned {and} rejected in the indignation of His anger the king and the priest.

Lam 2:7 The Lord has scorned, rejected, {and} cast off His altar; He has abhorred {and} disowned His sanctuary. He has given into the hand of the enemy the walls of her palaces [and high buildings]; they have raised a clamor in the house of the Lord as on a day of a solemn appointed feast.

This morning, the Lord spoke to me so strongly that I was literally frightened. God said He is rejected the activity of His house – the things we call church and congregation. The Father said that He is a jealous God. He is asking, “Where is my worship? Where is my praise?” The Father is rejecting our concept of ministry.

The church has too many distractions that we are attempting to define as the will of God. Yes, correction is of the Father, but too many have a ministry of correction without genuine worship. Yes, preaching the Word is in the Father’s plan. However, too many spend hours traveling and preaching, but don’t sacrifice to lay out before God. Attending church and assembling with the saints is ordained and commanded in the Scriptures, yet too many are spending hours in services, but no quiet time in God’s presence.

The Lord gave me a word about two weeks ago, and I will repost it in obedience. MINISTRY CANNOT BE DONE IN OUR OWN STRENGTH. So many of us think we know how to operate in ministry, but we know only in part. We know how to facilitate a service, and we understand how to pat others on the back and make them feel better. Yet, not many understand how to usher in the presence of God. When was the last time you loved on God without interruption? So many believe they are seeking Him, yet there is no change. We must remember, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO DWELL IN GOD’S PRESENCE AND COME OUT WITHOUT A CHANGE! Where are the miracles? Why aren’t the blind seeing? Why haven’t the dead been raised? God says we lack power, because we lack HIS faith. These things come only by fasting and prayer.

God is going to change the MOTIVES in many of His people. Those who refuse to change will be rejected. God is rejecting our offerings. Ministry and worship must go hand in hand. The flesh must be crucified and our motives purified. The Father is calling for intimacy with Him. Ministry can no longer be done in the flesh. The Spirit of God will move and instruct every command. In this season, we must seek God. Move only when He says to move. Speak only when He says to speak.

“Obedience”, says the Lord, “is required for pure worship.”

Called to the Ministry of DIVISION

UNITY – This word has been used in so many arenas. It seems that everyone is preaching about unity in the Church. However, many have it misconstrued and misunderstood. According to the Word of God, the Ascension gifts and offices are set in place to bring unity in Jesus Christ (Ephesians 4). The reason unity is not being obtained in today’s churches is because we are still trying to unify people by the world’s standards. We are trying to unify apples and oranges. We want to bring together the holy with the unholy. Just because people attend church, we want to call them brothers and sisters in Christ. Not so. Where is the discernment? Where is the honesty and the soberness of mind? We know better.

Can two walk together, except they be agreed? What fellowship does light have with darkness? People of God, it’s time to get back to the Word. Just like everyone else, I’m tired of the quarreling and the lack of one-mindedness in the ministry. Yet, in my prayer time, God reminded me that His word is true. “My prophets,” He said, “are not called to bring unity, but division.” Yes, my Daddy explained that unity cannot take place until holiness is first separated from that which is unholy.

How do we know true ministry is still not taking place? We know because we’re too concerned with people “getting along.” We’re too concerned about worldly possessions. Yet, our zeal for truth, AT ANY COST, is lacking.

Luke 12:51 Do you suppose that I have come to give peace upon earth? No, I say to you, but rather division;
Luke 12:52 For from now on in one house there will be five divided [among themselves], three against two and two against three.
Luke 12:53 They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against her daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law.

In His ministry, Jesus never claimed to preach peace. He did not have a message asking everyone to “get along” and “work together.” Instead, he turned homes upside down. He divided churches and turned best friends against one another. Why? Because natural unity is not a priority. Unity is the spirit is needed, but only when unified in the RIGHT Spirit.
Truly, this is a time when some people should just be getting mad. We are in a season when obedience to the Father will destroy alliances. The flesh is about to get upset – if God’s people speak what thus says the Lord. It’s time for the martyrs to come forth. You may get some threatening phone calls. You may be blamed for some divorces. You may become a scapegoat for runaway children and separated best friends. Will you stand the ground even in this level of adversity?

It's Not of Your Own Strength

What is TRUE worship? What is TRUE ministry? God has been speaking over and over again to His people about these very issues. Somewhere in our thinking, somewhere in our obsession with “having church,” we have lost focus.

God dealt with me first about Joy, but then about the Body of Christ collectively. I spend a great deal of my prayer time interceding on behalf of God’s people and asking the Father to reveal things to me that will help us please Him more. I have noticed for a while that many are getting tired and weary in their well-doing. Some are even on the verge of quitting, wondering if ministry is really worth the price. Many are struggling with one thing or another, feeling as if God has forsaken them in the midst of their assignment. Even I have felt heavy and tired, almost depressed at times, so I had to ask God – what is going on? What are we doing wrong?

God said His people still don’t understand true worship and true ministry. He said we are still trying to do too much in our own strength. He reminded me that the flesh is weakened in His presence. So when we try to minister to the Father, but use natural means to do it, we become exhausted.

A few weeks ago, the Lord spoke a word and said His people enter into worship too haphazardly. In other words, we often seek His face without weighing the cost. We want to sit in God’s presence, but we’re not willing to die completely to flesh. There is a misconception in the Body of Christ that if we are doing “good works,” we are not operating in the flesh. Herein is where the problem lies. Those of us who operate in ministry must be submitted to our SPIRITUAL assignments. We often submit and stay in God’s face for a season. Yet, somewhere in our service, many of us decide to do things our way. We begin to get concerned about our own reputations and our own agendas. At that point, ministry becomes WORK rather than IDENTITY. God wants us to walk in Spiritual Identity rather than labor. Hallelujah! I am an African-American female. Because of that, there are certain facets of life that may be different than others, yet I walk in my identity. I simply am who I am. Should I decide one day that I will be more successful in life as a Caucasian male, WORK will be required in order to operate in that facet. Too many of us are tired, because we are involved in unnecessary tasks rather than following our assignment. When in spiritual obedience, our steps are already ordered by the Father. In TRUE ministry, there is no room for flesh. TRUE ministry cannot be done in your own strength!

1 Chr 13:5 So David gathered all Israel together, from the Shihor, the brook of Egypt [that marked the southeast border of Palestine], to the entrance of Hemath, to bring the ark of God from Kiriath-jearim.
1 Chr 13:6 And David and all Israel went up to Baalah, that is, to Kiriath-jearim which belonged to Judah, to bring up from there the ark of God the Lord, which is called by the name of Him Who sits [enthroned] above the cherubim.
1 Chr 13:7 And they carried the ark of God on a new cart and brought it out of the house of Abinadab, and Uzza and Ahio [his brother] drove the cart.
1 Chr 13:8 And David and all Israel merrily celebrated before God with all their might, with songs and lyres and harps and tambourines and cymbals and trumpets.
1 Chr 13:9 And when they came to the threshing floor of Chidon, Uzza put out his hand to steady the ark, for the oxen [that were drawing the cart] stumbled {and} were restive.
1 Chr 13:10 And the anger of the Lord was kindled against Uzza, and He smote him because he touched the ark; and there he died before God.

The Lord revealed something significant to me about this passage of Scripture. After David consulted with the leaders and decided the Ark of the Covenant should be returned to God’s people, the ENTIRE CHURCH took part in handling God’s presence. In essence, this was the first mistake, and David learned from it, as we’ll see in subsequent Scriptures. Many times, we feel like the entire church congregation is entitled to enter God’s presence and prepare the sacrifice of worship…NOT SO! Not everyone has the ability to touch the Father and stand in His presence. He has a select few who are ordained to minister unto Him.

Often in ministry, we even assume that because someone has a title or ministry that they also minister to God. Even this is a misconception. God even showed me there is a difference between the Five-Fold/Ascension gifts/offices and the Levitical anointing. Those in the Five-Fold ministry (Apostles, Prophets, Evangelists, Pastors and Teachers) are gifted and called by God TO THE CHURCH. They operate in the gifts and callings for the purpose of edifying the Body of Christ and bringing the PEOPLE into the knowledge of Jesus Christ. However, not all who are called to these purposes are also called into the priesthood. The priests of God have a special assignment, often atop of a Five-Fold office, ordaining them to minister directly to the Father. Yes, there is a separation between ministry to people (the flesh) and ministry to the Father (in Spirit and in Truth) the Many are called, but FEW are chosen!

There is a separation between those who are equipped to enter God’s presence and those who are not. In the Scripture, I noticed that the events took place on the THRESHING FLOOR. Yes, the place where the wheat and the chaff are separated!

Now, back to Uzza… First, understand that the name “Uzza” means “strength.” As the place of separation (the threshing floor), God’s presence (the Ark of the Covenant) looked and seemed as if it was in jeopardy – as if it may be lost. So the man of God used his own strength (Uzza) to try and steady or constrain the presence of God! Too often we rely on gifts and abilities, intellect, knowledge and even entertainment to try and rescue God’s presence. The Father is saying this is not the way. FLESH MUST DIE WHEN IT TOUCHES HIM, hence the death of Uzza. He had gifts, but lacked the spiritual assignment of the Levites. So by attempting to touch God in his flesh, he brought about his own death.

1 Chr 13:12 And David was afraid of God that day, and he said, How can I bring the ark of God home to me?
1 Chr 13:13 So David did not bring the ark home to the City of David, but carried it aside into the house of Obed-edom the Gittite [a Levitical porter born in Gath-rimmon].
1 Chr 13:14 And the ark of God remained with the family of Obed-edom in his house three months. And the Lord blessed the house of Obed-edom and all that he had.

The Word of God says that David was afraid after this incident, and decided he would not attempt to constrain God’s presence. So, he sent the Ark to Obed-Edom. This house was blessed by God’s presence for two reasons. 1 – This was a place of Levitical ordination. This man was ordained to minister in the presence of the Father. 2 – “Obed” means “service and worship.” Need I say more?

1 Chr 15:2 Then David said, None should carry the ark of God but the Levites, for the Lord chose them to carry the ark of God and to minister to Him forever.

Now, David gets a revelation. He understands the Levitical call, and decides to follow God’s way rather than the plan of the people.

The Lord has shown me the massive amounts of blood that are on the hands of the church. We have literally ushered people into their own demise. How so? We tell them they can bring anything as an offering unto our Father. We allow anyone to attempt to bring in God’s presence. We put gifts before holiness. As my Pastor has stated before, we honor gifts more than the fruit. We tell people they can approach the Father just as they are. We have lied to so many. Now, the Body thinks that flesh can live in God’s presence.

It’s not of your own strength!

1 Chr 15:11 And David called for Zadok and Abiathar the priests, and for the Levites--Uriel, Asaiah, Joel, Shemaiah, Eliel, and Amminadab,
1 Chr 15:12 And said to them, You are the heads of the fathers' houses of the Levites; sanctify yourselves, both you and your brethren, that you may bring up the ark of the Lord, the God of Israel, to the place that I have prepared for it.
1 Chr 15:13 For because you bore it not [as God directed] at the first, the Lord our God broke forth upon us--because we did not seek Him in the way He ordained.
1 Chr 15:14 So the priests and the Levites sanctified themselves to bring up the ark of the Lord, the God of Israel.
1 Chr 15:15 The Levites carried the ark of God on their shoulders with the poles, as Moses commanded by the word of the Lord.

1 Chr 15:16 David told the chief Levites to appoint their brethren the singers with instruments of music--harps, lyres, and cymbals--to play loudly and lift up their voices with joy.

Finding God in the Strangest Places

Alone

But comforted by Your presence
Enthralled by Your holy essence
Reading Your Word, receiving Your presents


Quiet

But yet You speak so clearly
With my distractions, Father I nearly
Missed hearing Your voice, so dearly


Dark

With my eyes, I see no light
But in the Spirit I share Your plight
As your people do wrong, forsaking what’s right


Deep

In a whole and can’t get out
But You are with me, there’s no doubt
Supplying my needs, I’ve no need to pout


Alone

Quiet

Dark

Deep

Yet...
I feel You now
I hear You now
I see You now
I can reach You now

Hmmm...
Funny how that works, Father
No flesh, No noise, No natural sight, No surface revelation
Brings
Godly compassion, A prophetic ear, Spiritual revelation, A supernatural touch

Perhaps I should "get away" more often!

The Day I Told God "YES"

After a long day of hard work and labor
I finally got home and sat down at the kitchen table
I looked up to the ceiling and immediately began to pray
Father, I love you so much, but I've had a hard day!

Not only that Lord, but I'm tired and I'm weak
I work so hard to please You, yet my life seems so bleak
I know You're a provider, but to pay my bills I'm not able
I want to represent You, but others see me as unstable

I know that You're a healer, but my body aches with pain
I know I must have faith, so I constantly pray in Jesus' name
Yet when the day is over and all things come to an end
I sit here at this table, and cry out to You, once again

God, I know that You are faithful, it's not you who's failing, no
But what is wrong with me, that at Your command, I just can't go?
Why does it seem my life is just one struggle after another
And not only me Lord, but the same for my sisters and brothers?

A holy life I live, and a witness to You I try to be
Yes, I make mistakes daily, but I'm obedient to what You ask of me
I preach the word and speak out boldly against all sin
Yet the devils of the world prosper, and I simply struggle, once again

Let me interrupt right here, my Father said to me
When you said “yes” to do my will, how did you think your life would be?
You promised be a COMPLETE sacrifice - mind, body and soul
That means that from time to time, you may not quite feel whole

Job, the prophets, and even My Son felt desperate from time to time
Yet they all remembered the day they said, “Father, let Your will be mine.”
Don't ever feel I've neglected you, or that I don't hear your call
But know that your tests, your trials and scars prevent someone else from a fall

You've been ordained to complete a work for Me, though it may seem hard
The Church has lied to so many, promising ministry will make you a star
In fact, I demand a servant’s sacrifice, hard work and sometimes tears
Yes, I require your entire life - your time, your money and all your years

Death, debt and heartache may come, you may lose all you've got
Following Me is no easy task, I require ALL, not just a lot
A sacrifice is completely burnt up, until even it's composition is changed
Even so you will lose your very identity, operating only in My name

Remember, my child, what you said to me when I asked if you'd give all?
Oh Lord, Did I say "yes" to You? I believe that's what I recall
Yes, you said you’d obey My every command, to please Me in all you do
Godliness with contentment, my child, is what you'll need to get through

So suffer yet a little while, and when this life is gone
You'll see Me and my Son, face to face, pleased and saying 'Well done!'
And tell all the others who are struggling there - martyrs some have become
When one says "yes" to my will and way, it's a struggle not to succumb

Be encouraged knowing your sacrifice is certainly not in vain
For in this life and that to come you have so much to gain
Worship is a lifestyle, not just singing, dancing and prayer
But what you give Me everyday, what you're willing to lose and to share

So I pondered over all God said, and I suddenly felt relieved
Remembering my actual purpose in life in to help others to believe
To understand the Father must come first, even through every test
I guess this is really what I signed up for, the day I told God "yes"

A Call for Prayer and Sobriety

Last week, the Lord showed me a vision of a large red horse. It stood about as tall as a 2-story building. The horse began running through the streets where there were children playing. As he ran, he would violently butt the children with his nose, immediately causing death to every one in his path.

The Lord gave me some revelation on the vision, and led me to the following Scripture:

Rev 6:4 And another horse came out, flaming red. And its rider was empowered to take the peace from the earth, so that men slaughtered one another; and he was given a huge sword.

The Lord showed me that a new level of violence is breaking forth in this nation, and that our children will be the first victims. Over the last week, I have grieved and cried, listening to all the violence taking place against the babies of this land. School shooting and abductions are outrageous. This is only the beginning.

I am not claiming that we are in this phase of Revelation, necessarily. I honestly don't know if we are or not. I only know what God has shown me, and that I must share it. Many have spoken of a season of lack as well, and the Lord has confirmed this season to come following one of senseless violence.

Rev 6:5 When He broke open the third seal, I heard the third living creature call out, Come {and look} ! And I saw, and behold, a black horse, and in his hand the rider had a pair of scales (a balance).

Rev 6:6 And I heard what seemed to be a voice from the midst of the four living creatures, saying, A quart of wheat for a denarius [a whole day's wages], and three quarts of barley for a denarius; but do not harm the oil and the wine! [II Kings 6:25.]

The Church must prepare. This is not the time to be weak and emotional, but a season to be girded in prayer and fasting. Many will suffer loss and tragedy, but God's people must remain firm. The faith of many will be challenge, and many will fall away, feeling that God has forsaken them. Do not be caught unaware. Do not be surprised at the things to come. Know also that we are in the season - it is not afar off, but now. Be alert and vigilant. Hide in God.